5th
Rant on Life
As I’m here typing out this excerpt of my life I am beginning to feel as if there is nothing worth while in my life. I know the sentiments of most people would be like, “oh stop being a pussy-emo and man up,” or “fuck this I ain’t gonna read about no punk ass azn slandering life.” I fully understand my own psyche and I know I’m not being over emotional due to the gloomy whether (note: studies have claimed that prolonged periods of shitty weather can lead to depression). The fact is that my feeling of self emptiness is prolonged in my life. An example of this is that when people get paid they usually are full of vigor and ecstatic because getting paid is fucking awesome. Yet when I get paid I automatically think, “Oh great, another check proclaiming how much of a tool I am to the machine of modern middle class society.” Before I say anything else I want to make clear that, yes I understand how privileged I am to even have a job and live in a modern day country. But, and this is a big but, when one receives a tidbit of pie, they will always strive to have the whole fucking thing. So I say blasphemy to anyone and everyone who thinks I am just bitching about my middle class life.
Okay now back to what I was stating earlier. I have found the source of my deep regression of life and it has to do with the progression of my life into adulthood. My current plan in life to finish school and find a career that makes around $60,000 - $100,000. It is a standard cookie cutter format of an average middle class American. The 2 people who are actually reading this are like, “Yeah… why are you whining and moaning about a good future such as this?” The reason why I ponder the value of my life is that most people and myself believe this to be an enriched and audacious life. Yeah the people that are reading this are probably like, “Uhm what the fuck are you talking about?” Let me explain it like this, if someone choose the life such that I have stated before than they are just following the mold that society has made sought worthy. For example the social norm would be that everyone wants to be like Hank the doctor who drives a BMW everyday to work and goes on this yearly vacation to Paris. Yet on the other hand no one would praise their child to be the bum outside 711 drinking a 40oz. for obvious reasons. But before casting my argument null and void take a time to consider if a bum’s life is actually better than yours. He who has the freedom to what ever their fancy and have no obligation to work are deeded privileged in life. You’re probably going to say, “But Alex I have money and can buy whatever I want to eat and I own shit like a rice rocket with black rims.” What I have to say about this is that bums always find a way to eat otherwise their kind would be extinct. So I am just going to end it here quick with some food for thought, at the end of the day what have you done to leave a lasting impression on the human race and is it of more value than what an average bum has achieved? And basically I am just complaining about the social norms of career earnings and how they are perceived by everyone.
